So, it’s been a minute since I have sat at my computer, and written. Why? … Time? … Life? … Overwhelmed? … Well, yes to all the above. About seven months ago, I made a promise to myself that I would write on a daily basis, no matter if it was something to be published, or to just write and keep my mind at peace. Writing does that for me. It’s everything to me. It’s creative, it’s cathartic … it’s a release. So why has it been a good four months since I’ve written anything?!!? I don’t know. Maybe I thought I would get more support from the people closest to me, friends, family … Maybe I thought I would be an instant success (that’s a HUGE maybe) … Maybe I was afraid to fail … Maybe my mom was re-diagnosed with cancer … Maybe I have felt overwhelmed. Not from writing, but with life. I started to feel depressed. Winter blues? Maybe. I do suffer from them highly. Lack of things to do? No. November and December were crazy busy months! Lack of friends? That would be a no, as well. I know who my true friends are, and aren’t, and those that are, are held as close to my heart, as my own family, since friends are the family we choose. Then what the hell is it?!
I’m typically the person who, if I’m told I can’t do something, I will dig in and show YOU that I can. Problem is, no one has told me that I can’t, so I haven’t had that drive to “show you”, that I can. Another problem is honesty. The few people who do praise my writing, are the very few people who are supposed to. If you like my writing, tell me. If you don’t, tell me… I’m always looking for feedback, constructive criticism … I am, however, NOT looking to be knocked down, I do that fine on my own. HA! If you have nothing nice to say, keep your shit to yourself. If you secretly want to see me fail … Fuck you. Get your own life together, and then maybe you can be happy to see someone else succeed. PS … I wish “those people” nothing, but the best! Ugh!
Which brings me to another point, and possibly another article to write … What is wrong with people now a days? There is enough, in this world, for everyone to be successful. Be happy for someone else, and maybe you can be happy in your own life. Whether it be a successful singer, actress, doctor, lawyer, mom, dad, secretary, police officer, writer, producer, artist (in any form), athlete … Wake up each morning and be grateful for another day of life. Stop seeking the negativity, and start realizing all things positive in your life, and watch how the world around you starts to change.
A little story. I went to the store yesterday. There was an adorable little girl, maybe 3 or 4, with downs syndrome. I noticed my daughter looking at her (as far as I know, she’s never really seen a child with downs before). This adorable little girl was a spirit full of love that could be seen by anyone with a freaking heart. Instead of making a big deal of the little girls downs, I showed my little one kindness … This little love was saying Hi to everyone … Some people would kindly respond, some would just walk on by (heavily rolling my eyes). I stopped shopping, and took the time to interact with her. She said “Hi! Hi! Hi!” … I said “Hi there honey! How are you? Are you having fun shopping with Daddy?” … She was so happy that I, a stranger, took the time to have a micro-convo with her. You would have thought that I had handed her a winning lottery ticket. My daughter never questioned “what was wrong with her” … she just saw her as an adorable little girl. Hashtag micro-convo … Perhaps a movement I would like to start?! Have a micro-convo with a stranger, a child, a veteran … It will change their day, and yours too! #microconvo
Regardless, this post is simply to hold myself accountable, and move forward with my writing. I’ve come to realize that writing, for me, is equal to oxygen. I need it in my life to live, to be happy, to feel less stressed … and a little less overwhelmed. I don’t think of writing as a “job” for me, but I’m going to, moving forward. I’m going to allot a certain amount of time, each day, to write. I’m going to try to post something, a minimum of once per week, more if I can. I have plenty to say, and write about. I just hope to see some feedback in the future, from my peers, about what you like, what you don’t … maybe some suggestions on topics to write about. I love a challenge. I love to research new topics. Did y’all like when I did “interviews” or should I keep my blog to straight up articles, stories and poems?! Any and all feedback is greatly appreciated. Wishing you all a very happy, healthy, and PRODUCTIVE 2018! Peace, love and happiness to you all!